Finding the Gems

I get stuck in ruts. All the time. Sometimes several times a day. I can be up one moment and back down the next hour. I'm trying to accomplish something great, to inspire and be recognized. But then I try to find happiness in other things. Fake things. Fiction.

Am I good enough in reality? I need to find out, no more wasting time. I want to be less selfish, be a part of the mass and be there for others. I want to be a great sacrifice. To be useful. To put others before myself. I find this notion the most inspiring for me. To stop being one more mouth to feed, one more breath taking in air, and put my two-cents into this world. Put in my best efforts to make society better.

When I think of all those amazing people that made a difference, I know they weren't thinking about how much they want pancakes right now, or about having the best clothes, or even how much they wanted to be loved more than love other people. They were thinking about their next move. How can they improve? How can they help more? I admit, I am a terribly practical person, and it gets in the way of many things (including *ahem* romantic relationships) but I think its what is going to help me be who I want to be. It inspires me more deeply than anything. I believe being practical is a good thing. A really good thing.

To find my hidden gems and polish. To work hard every day of my life, pushing myself harder and further, that is a way I can live without regrets.

Daytrippin'

I think it's very important to take days to explore new or old places. To find new wonders, new trials. To think differently. It's important to go alone.  When you travel alone, you have the opportunity to depend on yourself that you don't have when you're settled at home. You learn what you can handle, how much you can take. But then you learn to expand and cover everything else that you never knew. You expand so much that you begin to cover the horizons and the stars and then you make it back home and you are bigger and better than who you were before. You're different but you're the same because you spent your travels becoming your true self. With no one else to tell you how to be.

A Tea Time Snack

Having tea in the afternoon is the closest I can possibly get to living overseas right now. It's something that gives me hope. It keeps me wondering, thinking. Other than the fact that it tastes amazing, afternoon tea is my time to unwind and find my center again, to live with purpose.

Today I wanted to share a recipe with you of one of my favorite tea cakes: Coconut Macaroons

These can be either chocolate or vanilla, as shown in this batch. This recipe is super simple and easy! It's my go-to snack for days when I want some sugar, but am not in a huge baking mood. (yes every baking-lover has those days!)

Coconut Macaroons

Ingredients:

- 1 cup shredded coconut (I used unsweetened so I didn't have to eat bad sugar)

- 1/2 cup coconut flour

- 4 eggs

- 1/2 cup of honey or sweetener of choice

- 2 tsp vanilla

- 3 tsp chocolate powder (optional)

Mix all ingredients in a bowl until well combined. If it's too wet or dry, just experiement with the recipe by adding more coconut shreds, or more eggs. With your hands you want to form into ping pong-sized balls and place on a baking sheet. Bake at 350 degrees for 17-23 minutes, or until golden brown. Brew up your favorite tea and enjoy! *This recipe is GAPS friendly (without added chocolate powder)

Spring Wishlist 2014

Jacket//Socks//Shoes//Lipstick//Swimsuit//Bike Basket//Coat//Vest

I feel like I'm a little bit simple this season. I just need to add to my basics, you know? One of those seasons. Also as a sidenote, I just realized the doc martens were mens..... but I want the same thing but women's version...

Happy spring! And happy birthday to my wonderful twin sisters who are 23 today!

Time

I was thinking a lot today about how I spend my time, and why. Why do I let myself think that it's ok to waste time if I deserve it? What does it mean to deserve time? No one deserves a single thing. I don't deserve time.

Time is a gift, and I must spend it wisely. If I need to relax, find some way to be inspired. If I am busy, do my work for someone else. I don't need to be a slave to time, but I must not take advantage of it's wonderful presence. I realized today that wasting time is going to get me no where fast.

 I talk big for a little person. I say I will go here and there, and then I sit and wait. Sit and wait. The pattern that kills dreams and chances. Dreams and chances pass you by and then where are you left? Sitting and waiting. Dead because you missed your life. You missed time.

I will climb mountains and swim across the sea. I won't wait for my chance to come, I will seek it with every will and every muscle of my body. It's time to get up and make something of myself. It's time.

Saying Goodbye

You know, to my hair that is. It's been a long journey with my long hair. It was short, it was long, it was dip-dyed, it was chopped it was red, it had bangs, no bangs, you get the picture. I change my hair a lot.

Well anyways, It's all getting chopped off tomorrow. That's right, it's pixie cut time. What better way to celebrate/mourn the life of my hair than swooning and collaging?

This was the last time my hair was blond. I took this picture right before I dyed it red with henna. I'm ready to see my natural color again after a year of being a red-head.

I always love changing up my hair avery once in a while. It's not that I'm not happy with what I have, but I just love the thrill of getting a new look. And it always changes, always grows, always turns into something else. And then you can start all over again with something new.

I think I'm ready for something new.

I live for eggs

I'd like to say that I make time to cook fancy meals all the time, but I'm coming clean.
This is my confession: all I really eat is eggs and avocados.

Is that so bad? I mean at least it's not chips and spagetti.....
It could be worse

Eating these things makes me feel good. That's all, really.
Just some fried eggs, half an avocado, brown rice, and usually I'll throw in some bacon and some homemade yogurt over the rice.

I really am a breakfast person.... just not at breakfast time.

(I'm also addicted to raisins- as you can see pictured to the right. These were fresh from the farmers market that morning along with the eggs and avocados)